Missing University

At the beginning of 2020, I was enrolled to do postgraduate study in Psychology. But I pulled out at the last minute because I didn’t want to keep putting off my life.

Studying meant I had to delay proposing to my wife, It meant we couldn’t look at buying our house. It also would have been a really shitty few years to be studying given the turn of events that was the global pandemic.

Today, I’m missing the rich intellectual life I had during my time at university. I had a lot more time for reading and writing. While I can look back and say I made the best choice I could have given the circumstances, I can also say that I will always wonder what if? What if I had pursued academia?

I think regardless of whether we’ve had favourable outcomes or otherwise, we must learn to live with the decisions we’ve made and realise that our lives could have gone in any number of directions. It’s this feature that underpins much of what makes life so exciting and sometimes terrifying.